We are all raising our children right now in a world that judges our choices, without asking our reasons. Since having my sweet boys, there are very few judgements that cause me to second guess myself as a mother. I don’t care that people think I baby my children, I will hold them and kiss every last booboo. I don’t mind if others feel that Vicks is not a safe treatment for their cough, I lube it on them just like grandma always did. I am not capable of giving the cloth diaper thing a shot to save the environment, I do too much laundry as it is. With all that said, I do struggle with the immense pressure to become a stay at home mom. This internal struggle has been weighing on my heart more in the last couple months than it ever has before and in hopes that there is another mama who may be comforted by my saying it out loud, I will write it out here in my very first blog :)
I am a mom first, but I also have a career. This mama bear loves her boys immensely. I harness so much joy in my life from watching them learn and grow and reach milestones! I can’t wait to be home with them everyday at 4pm and I can hardly wait for the weekend to come so we can spend every moment together. This mama bear also loves learning, teaching, and working with people immensely. Before I had children, a big part of my identity was being an Occupational Therapist, and I am fulfilled by this career. I am proud to be helping my patients and teaching next generation therapists. In some ways even more so now that I am a mom, I want to make an impact in the world. I want to inspire people to be better and improve health in the world my sweet boys will grow up in. I want to be proud of me and what I have accomplished, so that Emmett and Harrison can be proud of me too.
Everyone’s story is different, and whether you are a stay at home mom or working mom, you are doing an amazing job. As mothers we should not be ashamed to say “I love what I do”.
I am tired of being asked to focus on the reasons I shouldn’t be going to work everyday. I want to focus on all the ways that my boys can benefit from having a working mama, by developing a greater appreciation for hard work or being an example for them to dream big and impact the world. By working to achieve my dreams while simultaneously loving and caring for my boys, I believe I can be a source of inspiration for them as they grow. I know I was inspired by my own tirelessly hardworking mother growing up! I want to feel empowered to make the right decision for me and my family at any given time in our lives, and I want other women to as well.
Will I continue to struggle with knowing if I am making the right decision, sure. But that just makes me human, and even more so a mother. My family will always come first, and I am blessed to work for such an amazing company that allows me that work/life balance. God has given me talents in my work and blessed me with two amazing boys to raise, I will continue to be the best version of myself by allowing both to flourish.